My Last Full Day (and Night) at Home.

Today is it. It's my last chance to see people, last chance to pack and buy even more last minute stuff.

I didn't sleep last night. Thom came over around... oh I don't even know, 2 AM?
We had been talking on skype, and he realized how upset I was when I decided I can't handle this Matt thing anymore. He said, "let's go for a walk," and then he drove over to my house.
Yeah, he's impulsive like that.


We did go for a walk, because that is what I always do when I am upset, and he knows it helps me. I told him everything I was feeling, how I want to confront Matt about how I feel like he's ducking me every time I talk to him online - no matter what time of day it is, if I start talking to him, he "only has a few minutes" and then he has to go. It's bullshit, or it's a series of awful coincidences. But I'm pretty positive he just doesn't want to talk to me. he never spends more than an hour on skype when we talk, and yet last night I didn't initiate a conversation, and he was on for quite a bit longer.

I'm sick of feeling like he doesn't care, I'm sick of feeling like the stalker-chick who waits up to talk to a guy that doesn't reciprocate the feeling. He's in or he's out. But I need a decision.



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Well, I won't dwell more than I already have.
Busy day, today.

Stayed up with Thom until .... 7?





I was woken up by Cherie calling me at 10, asking me where I was - We were going to stop at Staples this morning before she went in to work. So I quickly brushed my teeth and changed my clothes and ran out the door.

We got the item we were looking for - laptop lock.

After, we chilled at my house for a little while, then she left for work.
I showered and tried to wake up more (it didn't work... I'm falling asleep as I type this), then I had to go pick up some forms from my insurance people for my birth control - something stupid about the company getting a discount on prescription drugs that span more than 3 refills, if it's done through the mail - it's all just a pain in the ass.

Well, after that ordeal, I finally came home and now I am here typing this.

After, I will probably run back out for some more stuff for my dorm - clothes, a couple more supplies...little things.

Then, coffee with my sister.
At some point, I need to see Thom again.
And then hopefully my sister, Cherie, my mother, and I will watch Happy Feet together tonight.
My mom has never seen it, but wants to (and I love that movie, so shutup), and so we decided that we would all do that tonight after Cherie gets out of work.


I hope it all works out as planned. I'm going to miss everyone (well, everyone that matters) so much.

Also, this is completely unrelated, but I feel like complaining: Yuck. I hate that I am going to have my period for almost the entire first week that I am in college. My menstrual cycle hates me.



I'm probably going to add to this later, just to review what actually happened, instead of what I plan on doing for the rest of today.

Damn, I guess the epic battle won't fit in today's monlogues...




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Well, it's later, and everyone came over, as planned. Thom and Cherie and Kayla. Kayla is my sister's best friend, but she considers herself my close friend, too. Even Rose, Cherie's mother (and my close personal friend), came over to say goodbye. Carmichael - an old flame from May - came by. Hmmm... Tim texted me, wanting to hang out. I turned him down, and he got upset, because he said he won't get to see me again until winter. Ehhh. I don't mind that, really.

Thom just left with Kayla - his truck wouldn't start, so he walked to my house today, and she agreed to give him a ride home (he told me he's getting laid tonight, so apparently that's not the only "ride" she's going to give him XD).

I'm tired. I passed out on the floor in my room earlier tonight, due to lack of sleep. lol


Hmmm
I confronted Matt. After all that freaking out, I was completely wrong. I am definitely the stereotypical crazy chick. Whatever, I still don't know what to do about him.

I guess I'll play it by ear from here on out. *Although I suppose that's all I have been doing*


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Talked to Matt tonight on skype, after everyone left, and after I edited this entry the first time. I actually got to see his face, it made me so happy :)
He reassured me completely, I couldn't be happier right now, unless I was with him.
Since I gave him the link to this blog (shutup Thom, it wasn't how you think it was), he is probably reading too. Hey Matt.
I love you.
Thanks for tonight.

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Well, tomorrow will be hectic. Hopefully I will find time to post.
Goodnight for now, Internet.