Idiot.

Arkadiy came by around 8.
I was still annoyed, and he caught on.
We talked, and we worked it out.

I told him the truth:
I am willing to
A) Be friends and just that.
B) Sever all communication with him
C) Screw around without any emotional attachment.

He wanted none of the above. But then he said that he was willing to try just screwing around.
He wanted to know how I could go from caring about him one night to not caring the next day.
I told him that after he decided to hurt me and drop everything so suddenly, I realized that I should never have gotten so attached to him. I realized that it was wrong, and that I didn't want it to be that way.

He claimed that he felt like it was unfair to Matt, and that was why he decided that we should just be friends. I know that the real reason was just that he couldn't handle me not loving him, and me always loving Matt. It was a "what's he got that I ain't got?" kind fo conversation, most of the night. So he left, as a friend. Good riddance.


I love Matt so much. With all of my heart.

I don't think I will be screwing around with any more guys here for a while.

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PS - speaking of not screwing around with any guys here... the cute hispanic boy in my Morality and the Law class asked for my number today. This is not a good sign.