It's been a while...

Ok. Well, I didn't think anyone read this anymore, so I kind of stopped keeping up with it as my life got more and more hectic. However, Thom tells me he misses my updates. So, here goes:

Hmmmm.....

Matt is no longer a part of my life - at least, not the way he was. We lost touch: we wouldn't speak for weeks and weeks at a time, so I grew frustrated and began to detach.

That's when I started growing fond of Arkadiy. Well, I already grew fond of him... but, this was different.
We had been messing around already for quite a while, but I told him not to expect anything more than that from me. He said that he was ok with that.

I went home with him one weekend. I met his family. I loved them, they loved me. And I told him, "Arkadiy, I want to date you. I want you to be only mine, and I want to be only yours."

He looked me in the eyes and said, "Emma, I don't know how they do this nowadays, so... Will you be my girlfriend? ... I really can't think of a more eloquent way to ask..."

I kissed him. After, he just said, "So.... is that a 'yes'?"
It was.

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I called Matt to tell him because I felt like I should. It seemed like the right thing to do. Not like he cared. When I called and told him that I was in a relationship, he sounded completely nonchalant. Like he didn't give a fuck about what I was doing with my life and my love. So I realized, this was just another sign that I am with the right person. Matt either didn't care, or didn't care enough to tell me how he was actually feeling.
Thus, I am with Arkadiy, and I am happy for the first time since I fell for Matt.
I still have feelings for Matt, but I need to let that fade, so that I can get on with my life. He clearly didn't care for me the way I care for him. So I am better off this way.


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That was... November 7, I believe. Things have been going well ever since.

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School has been annoying and tiring, and I can't wait for winter break.

I'm considering minoring in acting, because my teacher in that course keeps telling me how good I am and how well I understand the craft. He keeps saying, "I hope you continue acting, at least as a hobby"
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Arkadiy is coming with me when I go home for winter break, and he's staying through until December 27th. My russian, jewish boyfriend will get to experience an irish/italian catholic christmas! Haha it'll be great. I can't wait!

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PS - just had to mention it: Arkadiy is the best lover I have ever been with. Ever.
And he finds it hilarious every time I marvel at his talent.
I have never experimented and had so much fun in bed!
He's amazing.
and he's smart! So smart. I don't usually pay attention to IQ, but his is 142... he's brilliant!
I love how strong, smart, handsome, funny, sexy, devoted he is! I could go on for hours, I think, just talking about how perfect he is. I can't understand why he is with me.
He's protective and he takes care of me. Even when I freak out and have a melt down, which happens about once every couple of months (but more often, lately), he knows how to handle it, anbd he calms me down. He always says, "I'm not going anywhere, Emma, so why don't you just calm down and talk to me. Talk to me, honey. I love you."

Anyhow, I love him, and he loves me. And I'm so happy.